Published by admin on October 13, 2015

The Opportunity of Heartbreak

Loneliness.

Sadness.

Bouts of depression.

This shit sucks.

My first ever long-term committed relationship.

Almost 2 1/2 years.

Why have I been such a veritable wreck?

And then it hit me:

I can rebuild from the ground up.

There is a brand new space in my life.

Yes, there is emptiness.

And until this moment, I saw that emptiness as a problem.

To be filled with almost every imaginable filler-upper.

But now that space feels different.

I feel a freedom to create my life all over again.

By design.

I have started a morning ritual consisting of meditation, stretching and gratitude.

I am stronger than I’ve been in a long, long time, as I’ve been working out and exercising regularly.

I’m getting back to eating cleaner after the post-relationship lull of not having someone to cook for/with.

Sure, my life is not where I want it to be.

I’m still staying up too late, not being as productive as I could be, yata yata yata.

BUT…

it’s a process, right?

I’m taking this thing one step at a time.

And that feels way more healthy and stable than going to extremes.

So, we shall see.

It’s a new beginning.

The opportunity is to be the person that I was when I was in my relationship, with the feeling of love in my heart and exuding joy, but as a single guy.

I was on a chatline recently when someone said that they were looking for a man that has “sunshine inside of him.”

I like that idea.

A lot.

I am not worried about attracting the right person for me.

I am fully aware that it will happen when I’m ready.

But right now is a time to build me.

From the ground up.

And that excites me.

#avoidance#beginnings#breakup#depression#emptiness#gratitude#heartbreak#loneliness#love#opportunity#rebuilding#relationships#void

Comments

  1. Curious
    October 13, 2015 - 8:52 pm

    Great article!

    • skyxander
      October 13, 2015 - 11:44 pm

      Thx so much!!!

    • skyxander
      October 14, 2015 - 5:38 am

      Thank you!

  2. hanruh25
    October 13, 2015 - 9:03 pm

    I love this! I’m totally heartbroken at the moment and it’s the worst feeling in the world! But you know- you have to take the hurt and turn it in to opportunity. You have to love you and then do something amazing! 🙂

    • skyxander
      October 13, 2015 - 11:43 pm

      Definitely!

  3. violetonlineisonline
    October 14, 2015 - 4:39 am

    right!

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